instability.

At this moment in time i feel like my life is in limbo. My motivation is low, when it should be high for me to get this work i have to do, actually done. I think it's because i'm normally in the dumps mentally and physically after a messy night. I've enjoyed seeing everyone over the holidays, it's a nice change that everyone congregates back in Doncaster for a change, rather than me to travel the lengths of the country to see them.
I ran a bath earlier and it required more effort than was humanly possible. I didn't leave the water on long enough, so the water went cold mid run and so i had to wait......and then put more hot in, which took up a good amount of my precious time. Finally got in the bath and i had the Stone Roses on, which is obviously heaven. After Elephant Stone, i went proper spaced out and went into like a euphoric state of relaxation, like i was going to go meet my maker, but jut for dinner. When i closed my eyes, i began to see shapes form and then they would morph into people. Some had hats and suites on and the others were like old people. I really enjoyed my bath time trip. Weird.